no.greater.love.

not-forg0tten:

For the past few weeks Ive been doing a study on Esther with my youth leader and yesterday we met to go over the next lesson which was seeing youself the way God sees you. I honestly didnt know what I was getting myself into with this. She read a verse in Galations that talked about dying to self and told me to meditate on it and to look at myself in the mirror and draw what I saw. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I dont always look at myself and see what God sees but I see all of the terrible things I had done to myself and said “how can someone be beautiful if they did all these awful things to themselves and let others take advantage of them”. I hadnt really seen myself as beautiful because of those things. When I drew myself, I drew my arms with cuts on them. Then she made me say all of the lies I believe about myself and we took them to God and we nailed them to the cross: every word and every action. I got kinda angry because I thought that I was done with all of those things but she said “you may not be hurting youself physically, but emotionally and spiritually, you still are”.  It was probably one of hardest things Ive done because that meant that I had to face those things head on and start to believe they werent true and give those things to God. Over the weekend I gave my heart to God and I didnt realize until now that it means to give Him the parts you hate and the parts you dont want to deal with to make room for Him and for the truth He offers. When we did that, we replaced those lies with truth like the fact that I am new and that God had forgiven me from the things I had done to myself and that is not what He sees when He looks at me. He sees me as a beautiful daughter. Im not saying this is easy to believe or that its easy to wake up everyday and fight against myself and the things that I think aretrue but I promise you that it is a journey you need to start because it will be worth it. When you see yourself the way God sees you, you become free from every lie and every false word spoken over you. He sees you as beautiful and new and a daughter of the most high. Start giving the lies to God and start taking on the truth.